Just Plain Waiting

The paperwork is in, the updates for the move have been made, now we just have to wait! Which actually sounds easier than it is. Don't get me wrong, there is plenty to do around here, I just really don't want to DO any of it. We're in escrow and signing a whole lot of papers. We have to think about painting walls and tiling floors before we move furniture in. And of course there is work and relationships and then also cooking and cleaning. Life is full, and I am distracted. I think about our daughter every day and wonder where she is, what she is doing. She is always with me. Last night, for my birthday, we went out to an Indian restaurant in town. It was our first time there and the food was wonderful! Of course, as is my pattern of late, I imagine our daughter at this restaurant. I picture her loving the food and us feeling good about connecting to her culture in this way.

So we're on the waitlist in good standing, with just our homestudy to be updated. Our caseworker/psychologist Rachel has generously offered to fly up from Orange County to do this for us! It looks like that will be happening in early April. We could get a referral any day now, or it could be months. Ahhhh, ambiguity. International adoption is an exercise in letting go....