Wondering and Waiting

I keep wondering what it will be like for us when we get our referral. Will I cry, be speechless, feel relieved, feel hyped up? I wonder what our daughter will look like, how old she will be. I am already trying to imagine ways to feel connected to her, because somewhere out there, she is inutero. Somewhere out there, a woman who is unsure of her life and her pregnancy is carrying our daughter. I believe in the power of energy and the spirit. I want that woman to know that I honor her decision, that I humbly appreciate the sacrifice she is about to make. I want her to know that her daughter will be cherished. I have a wonderful friend, Barb, who has begun to chant for our daughter. She chants for her everyday, letting her know that we are here, that we love here. I am so touched by others' excitement and devotion to this process. I feel so unbelievably lucky to have so many people who love us and who will love our little girl.